Thursday, February 28, 2013

Not so busy day...

I am taking the next two days off. 

First item of business is to get an estimate done on my car.  Hopefully the process of getting things repaired will go smoothly.

After that I have two immediate options.

Clean my apartment and do laundry.

Sit on the sofa and drink more coffee.

Then later on today I am planning on going over to my father's storage locker and taking some things out of it.  I'm not exactly sure what all is in it - I know there's a bookcase and some records.  Perhaps a few pictures as well.  I know there's a box of clothing that we kept for when my dad moved back into assisted living (which we pretty much knew wasn't going to happen).  I think I will donate those clothes (maybe I'll keep out a nice sweater to wear when I want to be near him)..  He was a big fan of cardigans.

I think I will also work in a workout this afternoon.  My grief induced lack of desire to eat period is officially over.  It's been a carb fest - maybe I already mentioned that...

I visited the chiropractor yesterday - he got my neck back into shape - my headache has gone away.  That's good.

Tomorrow I'm reading Psalm 23 during the service... I have to practice that today...  my dad always told me to go slow and not speed up my  speech...  don't want to let him down.  I also have to make sure I don't read from the wrong version of the Bible... maybe I should look up the Cotton Patch version - that might be interesting (but I wouldn't use it)...  It's the Revised Standard Version for my dad all the way... (I'm double checking that with my sister though...).

That is it today (for now).

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

One Down, One to Go

The memorial service yesterday was nice... there was only a few instances of blubbering - but we managed to get through it.

I think my mourning tummy is gone... mourning tummy is when you're too sad to eat anything. I don't have that problem anymore...  carb fest is the phrase that sums up everything now...

Today I am teaching, working and then I have a chiropractic appointment.  My neck is a bit out of whack and my shoulder is wonky... I think a tune up is needed.

Tomorrow and Friday I will take off.  Tomorrow I plan on helping out my momma if she needs it - she's been baking up a storm getting ready for my Dad's big service... last count there were 25 dozen cookies in the freezer at home. 

I'm driving to the gym today so I don't have to rush around this morning.  That's a good thing.

I don't know if I posted this, but it's the famous bloody mary photo of my Dad that was on the program from yesterday - the residents of the Hearthstone loved it.  They said it was fitting!

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Sleepin in (not)

I could have slept in today - I made it 'til 6:20...

Today is the first of two memorial services for my Dad.  I am taking the day off as a precaution... I think today's service will be pretty low key.  It's going to be at the Hearthstone.  It's for the people he lived with for the past 9 years or so, and his care-givers.

The people at the Hearthstone were wonderful to my father.  He wasn't always the most warm and fuzzy person in his last years, but they were very patient and loving towards him.  They took really good care of him and I am grateful for that.

For the most part I think I'm holding up pretty well.  I have most visceral reactions when I read what former students have written about my Dad... he was a great educator and was very loving towards all of his students.  He meant a lot to everyone he taught.  There are a lot of kids who turned into writers.  It's really nice....  I didn't turn into a writer (okay, maybe I'm wrong - look what I'm doing here...)... I think I turned into more of a visual story teller.  It's nice to think of that legacy.

What else is going on...  I'm hoping that my Dad will send me some help in cleaning up my apartment.

I think it was him who initiated the car accident which will result in the repair of my/our car.  It's a bit of a hassle, but just another one of those things.

Okay, I am officially getting distracted so I better get a move on.

Monday, February 25, 2013

Monday Again.

I am back to the grindstone...

I think I am feeling better.... after a day of doing a whole lot of nothing (well - not actually nothing) I am feeling a little less tired.  It's going to be a busy week of working, memorial services and getting my car taken care of...

I can tackle it though.

Last night my appetite came back - at least a little bit.  I had a bit of a carb fest.  I just have to keep things in check so I can get back to that stinking goal weight at ww... only .4 to go.

I think my brain is working better.

I think I might actually be able to function at work today.  I have a few things to do - I don't feel quite as exhausted as I have so I might actually accomplish things.

It's really windy outside - I hope I don't get blown away when I walk to the gym.

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Obituary and loose ends.

Here is a link to my Dad's Obituary.

I woke up at 3am and posted it on FB... you don't have any idea on how long it took us to decide on that photo...  I was rather fond of a photo I took of him with a Bloody Mary but my auntie Bev didn't approve.

Oh well.

Yesterday turned out a bit differently than I was planning.  My acupuncture/massage appointment was canceled.  I ran around Greenlake once without stopping and it felt pretty good... I would have gone around one more time but I had to use the facilities...

I ended up having lunch with one of my ww friends and then bought a guest book for the services this week and a pair of bereavement shoes (yeah - I bet you didn't know that there was such thing as bereavement shoes did you?)... they were on sale.  And since my appointment was canceled I went ahead and bought them.

I had been invited to a celebratory dinner for a friend of mine which I decided to pass on attending.  I'm trying to catch up on my sleep and I ended up watching Moonrise Kingdom and going to bed a little past 9:30.

I haven't gotten around to completely cleaning up the apartment, but I did manage to do dishes and laundry... and take the recycling out.  It's progress.  I will continue tonight while I'm watching the Oscars.  I haven't watched a single nominated movie this year... I had planned to see Silver Linings Playbook but that got disrupted.

After class this morning I may go to lunch with my friends from the gym.

I'm playing the mourning card... okay, maybe I'm not playing it - but I am selective over who I want to spend my time with right now and now I want to hang out with my gym buddies.

Ah - I also talked to insurance adjusters yesterday and made a statement about the accident - hopefully that will be resolved quickly.  At least my car is drivable. I have an appointment for an estimate on Thursday morning.

Oh, I was .4 away from being within my goal weight... next week for sure.

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Good sleep.

My brain wasn't doing too well yesterday - it was really really tired.

I got home, took a bath, ate some dinner and then fell asleep on the sofa.  I woke up after an hour and went to bed.

I got a good 9 hours and am feeling much better today.

Yesterday I managed to call my insurance company, I've been trying to get a hold of the insurance adjuster from Progressive to give my statement to them about what happened.  It will all get worked out. 

Today I am heading back to ww - maybe I will be back at my goal weight??  could happen.  Although I've been eating, it's not like I usually do.  Grieving is just not the same if you are not eating sweets.   I think it's a good thing though... if I can get through this with out shoving a cookie in my mouth I can get through anything.

I also have a massage and acupuncture appointment - I am looking forward to getting some ear seeds.  They are little seeds that are taped in your ears on pressure points to help with stress and anxiety.  They really work (for me at least)...   I also have to do some laundry.  I am officially at maximum capacity in my laundry basket...  I think I have enough quarters to get through a pile.

Tonight I have been invited to a dinner in honor of my best friend growing up.  She just got her MSW and started working at Harborview.  I am really proud of her - if I have the energy I will go for at least a little while.  It will be nice to be with friends.

One thing I will say is that I am astounded by how many people are offering their help.  It's nice.  I knew I had a lot of friends...

I hope at some point this weekend to clean up a bit around my place... it's a mess.  Oh well...

I suppose it's okay - I fell asleep watching Hoarders last night... I'm not at a hoarders stage yet, but give me a few days...  I have washed my dishes...that's good.

Okay, I better get a move on.

I'm feeling okay - I give myself a 7.

Friday, February 22, 2013

A touch of insomnia and a car accident

Last night was the first night I had a touch of insomnia.  Nothing too bad, but I did wake up a few times during the night.  at 4:40 or so I decided I might as well get up.

Last night after the long day of memorial planning, I worked out at the gym and then visited my dogs and momma for a few minutes.  On my way home from all of that I was involved in a chain reaction car accident.  I didn't experience any injury and my car only sustained a few scratches and a bit of minor damage.  I can't say the same for the car behind me.  Three cars were at a complete stop at a light.  A driver A drunk driver  (innocent until proven guilty) did not stop and plowed into the car behind me.  I didn't see it, but I sure heard it.  The tires screeching, a crash and then the car bumping me into the car in front of me.  There was enough force for things in the compartment in my dashboard to come flying out into the car.  The car behind me had her trunk pushed into her back seat.

I probably didn't have to stay around, but I'm a good citizen and would want someone to stay with me if it were me.

The police officer came after about an hour (he was pretty cute)... ha.  Took a report and when the girl in the car behind me mentioned that the car that ran into her had been driving erratically  and he smelled like alcohol he called in an additional officer.  The guy was arrested for DUI (he seemed sort of okay after the accident, but his actions were a little impaired... ) he was antsy and his description of the accident was nothing like what happened...

When the police officer talked to me he said that I had to stick around a bit - I didn't mind... he was after all pretty good looking... he told me to get my car checked out because "you need to keep your Honda going"  was he channeling my Dad?  maybe - maybe he was just being friendly... either way I will get the car checked out and get it fixed...  it must be a sign...

I'm not distressed about the whole thing.  I think it's just a weird thing that happens...

so - back to planning... Memorial Service will be next Friday at our Church University Christian.. 3pm.  I will post a link to the obituary this weekend.

here are photos of the accident!

Debris Field

Thursday, February 21, 2013

I'm okay everyone...

I understand that all people handle grief differently and you never know what you're going to get when you are dealing with someone is dealing with loss.

I have my moments of sadness, but for the most part I am feeling pretty good. Tired but good.

I've gotten some nice cards and flowers from the office and one of my attorneys.

Planning for the services are underway.  My sisters and I are actually getting along...

Tomorrow I will go back to work and then it's the weekend.  I am actually relieved in part that I don't have to go visit my Dad anymore.  It was getting challenging at the end because you never knew which Dad you were going to get.  Towards the end it was usually the sleeping Dad.

Today my sister said that it was probably a good thing that I wasn't there that last day.  I think I had a feeling that he was going die when I was gone.  I'm glad I got to say that last goodbye though.  I remember thinking to myself that I was going to be okay not seeing him again. 

People may perceive my reactions as being cold or uncaring but I've always been a little bit distant and removed in person..  I'm okay - treat me the same as you normally do (maybe with a little bit more care than usual).  If I need you to leave me alone I will tell you.

Take Good Care of Yourself

This is the complete version of the work I did in 2009 called Take Good Care of Yourself
I was listening to it last night and it just made me smile...

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

The Medicine Cabinet

This photo is from my Dad's medicine cabinet.  I took this photo before we cleaned out his assisted living apartment last year.  I'm not sure how long he had that English Leather Pre Electric Lotion but I think it was probably going on 20 years.  He was fond of musk as well.

I was in charge of cleaning out the cabinet.  I knew we weren't going to keep these things, but I needed to record the contents with a photo.

I still have some of the remnants of the cabinet/bathroom in my apartment.  They might end up in artwork someday soon.

Today I'm heading back to work.  I think it's best to stay busy and not dwell on the sadness.  Part of me thinks maybe I should be grieving more... but maybe the reminiscing and posting of photos is my own way of grieving.

I also have my Dad's half full bottle of gin in my kitchen cabinet.  If you are a regular reader of the blog you know that I don't drink much (if anything at all).  Maybe I'll have to get some vermouth and fix myself a martini on the day of my Dad's memorial service.  I once tried to make a martini when I was in High School and my Dad was away.  I'm sure I did a good job of it (he taught us girls well), but it didn't taste very good.  At an early age my parents would give us sips of wine and beer so I never thought of alcohol as being off limits... however, later on in life I did find that I always didn't have the best judgement when I was drinking so that's why I don't do it that often.  It's just easier not to.

You know what happens to me when I do drink... remember the naughty nettle ale incident?

How could we forget that?

Well then.

That's it for this morning.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Back (and Forth)

I got home last night around 10:30ish.. I'm not sure exactly what I did (oh yeah, I did eat a bunch of cheez-it's)... but I did go to bed a little after 11 and was out like a light.

Today has consisted of unpacking, applying for a Fellowship (six hours before it was due) and hanging out with the dogs for a short time.

What else....

I'm still handling things alright.  Not too upset - just sad.

I'm planning on heading back to the office tomorrow.  The remodel of the office started today, so who knows what will happen..

I'm also planning on teaching my class tomorrow night... my activity monitor has had almost no action this past week.

Someone contacted me about my business cards I left around the conference.  That's good.  I'm glad someone was paying attention.  He complimented me on the design (he found both the Today Show card and a few of the Failed T-shirt Design cards).

Part of me feels like I should be more distraught.

I guess I have been mentally preparing for the imminent demise of my parental unit for a long time.. (that sounds cold).    I keep thinking about all the artwork that is going to come out of this...

It's only 6:19pm but I think I could probably go to bed right now and sleep all the way through til the morning.

I don't have much more to say... at least until tomorrow.

Sunday, February 17, 2013

The window seat

I'm on my way home.

My trip was successful compared to other years. I networked a bit, made some new connections, and took some good workshops.

For two more hours I get to be the full time artist me.

I like her. I think she may stick around a while.

I'm sitting in the window seat. It's a different perspective than I'm used to. Maybe it's a metaphor for my life. Things change. You adapt. You try something new.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Checking in.

I am doing alright.

Every once in a while I'll be sitting in a toilet stall and I'll start getting weepy but it soon passes.

I've been keeping very busy with friends and activities.  Today I went to the Met and the Whitney.

I saw a good show of Matisse and a GREAT show of George Bellows. (at the Met)... I had no idea that George Bellows did more than just boxing paintings...  Maybe I knew at one point but it has vanished from my memory.

The Whitney had a show called Sinister Pop which was good and a video show in conjunction with it regarding television and film in the 60's...  I am just paraphrasing the gist of the show - when I'm not so stinking tired I will put up a link to it.

Last night I composed a nice statement about my Dad and shared my work Take Good Care of Yourself to my Facebook Friends.  The response and outpouring of support has been helpful.

I think the next few weeks will be challenging, but then I will fall back into a rhythm  which is more relaxed and "normal".  The past year has been hard...  I am relieved that it's over and sad that he's gone.

He had his issues (we all do) - but he was a good man and did the best he could with what he was working with.

This is us standing beside Take Good Care of Yourself at my 4Culture Show in July 2009.
Notice the upper belly resemblance??? pretty cute I think!

I'm going to miss you old man - but at least I have the sound of your voice to remind me of all those nights you used to read to us before bed.

Thanks Dad.

Friday, February 15, 2013

Opportunities, friends, loss

I won't spend a lot of time posting today.

My father passed away last night. although I am sad, I also have a sense of relief. I am glad I was able to say my goodbyes last Saturday and I know he would want me to be here doing what I am right now.

I was able to spend the evening with my friends Maria and Chris. I lived in their apartment here back in 2007. We went to dinner and had a good conversation and I was able to keep my mind off of things.

I am going to be staying here as planned. This morning I have a seminar on syllabus writing to attend. Then there are a few more panel discussions. I might try to hit up MOMA this afternoon too.

I managed to snag a hotpot from the hotel hallway yesterday so I am able to drink a nice cup of coffee while I am typing this. The hotpot had been sitting out in the hallway all day long and I figured if they hadn't picked it up, I might as well use it.

This evening I am attending an alumni reception for school. It will begun to see people.

The school is starting a low residency program and I have been asked if I might be interested in being a mentor artist for the students in the program. It's a good opportunity.hopefully things will pan out.

I think thats all I have this morning, I think it's more than enough though.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Day one.

I survived my first day of the conference.

Here is a quick report.

I managed to sleep in until 7:30. So what is that 4:30? That's no good.

I don't have any access to hot water in my room to make my coffee (via).

However, I did sit through a few good panels and attended a workshop about going about a job search. Was it worth 45 bucks? Maybe.

This evening (like last night) I went to Whole Foods in Columbus Circle and bought provisions. I have no place to keep things cold so I set them near the window. I will survive. If i get food poisoning it will be my own fault. I just have vegetables hummus and some fruit.

Tomorrow there are a few panels and then in the evening there is an opening and then I'm having dinner with my friends Maria and Chris. That will be fun.

Friday I have more workshops and seminars and I might try to hit up MOMA.

I am going to try and get in a workout in the morning. The fitness center is on my floor. Woo hoo - I haven't gotten any activity points today, but then again I've only eaten garbanzo beans and fruit. (I did remember gas pills).

Okay I think that's it. Wish me luck finding a hot water source!

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Winging my way across the country!

Because I sucked it up and purchased a new iPad for the trip AND because it's too noisy to take the nap I was SO looking forward to I decided to purchase in flight wifi service and give you a blog post from a bagillion miles up in the air!

I can't expand too much because I don't want to come off sounding like a bitch (although I will I'm sure). I actually got up and finished packing in a reasonable amount of time. I made it to the airport. Got reprimanded by the TSA agent by overlapping my laptop and my iPad, AND reaching in the "chute" to grab my purse. I think he needed a hug.

I am on a plane with the orchestra for PNB. It took a while to board with all those instruments that needed to be stowed into the overhead bins. They went first and then the rest of us boarded. When I got to my seat somebody was in it. I turned into a bitch all of a sudden. People had rearranged themselves and I wanted my stinking seat! I think they have rules about these sorts of things. I kicked the person out of my seat and now the ladies next to me (who are not in their assigned seats are talking nonstop.) I know all about their relationships and jobs and other crap. ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS TAKE A STINKING NAP!!!

I am trying some deep breathing exercises to calm me down.

On the plus side, I got to use the restroom in the first class cabin because they were taking up the aisle with the food service.

Here is my forehead...
I was going to show you my cheese plate but I can't access my stored photos. Oh look, I figured it out.

Only three more hours. Thank goodness.

Monday, February 11, 2013

A little reprieve this morning.

I am driving into the gym and work this morning so I can actually give you a quick post this morning.

Here is my report.

The weekend went alright.  Te meeting with my Dad went alright.  He doesn't look that great and he was definitely not having one of his better days.  He didn't have anything important to tell us, but it was nice for everyone to be there if only for a short time.  We can only do what we are able to...  As I've said before, he knows we love him and we know he loves us and if he needs to go he can.  He is being well taken care of and that gives me a sense of peace.

Onto brighter notes...  I lost more weight this week at ww from the too busy to eat diet.  I don't' recommend it but I will take the loss.

I managed to do some cleaning around my place and get some laundry done.  I also started thinking about packing for my trip.  I am not teaching tonight so I can get it done tonight. My flight leaves tomorrow morning at 9am.

Yesterday I made a semi-impulsive purchase and bought myself an ipad.  For the most part I got it to take with me to the conference so I don't have to trudge my laptop everywhere (although I will be taking my laptop with me as well).

I am looking forward to the conference this year.  Even though I don't have any interviews lined up I'm taking some workshops and meeting with people... it will be fun.  I plan on doing all my food shopping for the time I'm there at Whole Foods.  There's one a few blocks away and I can get there fairly easily (I just have to pack my snow boots....).

I think  that's all I need to share.  I have to finish coffee so I can be perky for my class.

Saturday, February 09, 2013


it has been so freaking stinking busy that all I can do it daydream about taking a nap on my plane ride on Tuesday...

Here is what I know.

My friend Melinda sent me an email the other day saying that she had talked to Mr. Arms and that he had seen me at the grocery store, but when went to find me I was gone.

Mr. Arms... you should have tried harder to find me.  You could have commandeered an intercom and said "hey Jennifer".... but no.  I hope I didn't look too sweaty... I usually go to that grocery store after I'm done teaching...  oh well. If you don't know who Mr. Arms is you can do a search within my blog.  He's a former gym member who I was/still am infatuated with.  I didn't know his name at first so I dubbed him Mr. Arms. (he's got a nice set of guns)...  He actually has a name, but I prefer to call him Mr. Arms.

He left the gym when I was in Vermont in 2011.  I haven't seen him since, but my friends see him all the time.  He's asked about me a couple of times.  I am on his list of email contacts that he sends questionably humored jokes to...He should just call me. 

Today I have a wax fest appointment and then in the afternoon we're all going to visit Dad.  Hopefully that won't be too stressful... it will be better with the family there.

I have to get my act together and clean, do laundry, start packing, and watch those movies I borrowed from the library (I found them on my coffee table under a piece of paper)...

I think I have dodged the Nemo blizzard... hopefully flights will be back to normal on Tuesday so I can get to New York.  I am really looking forward to taking that nap.

Thursday, February 07, 2013

What to

It appears as though my apartment has been taken over by a hoarder...

I think I shall spend tomorrow night cleaning up a bit.

I'm kidding about that first statement...  I just need to go through though and recycle some papers that are lying around. 

I have a lot to do before I leave on Tuesday.  One thing is watch some DVD's that I borrowed from the Library...  I just have to find them though.  I have Your Sisters Sister and A Friend for the End of the World.... I want to watch them, I just need to find the time and the actual DVD.  I know they are in my living room somewhere.

Things at work are getting really really busy... the good thing about this is that I don't have any spare time to shove excess food into my mouth... there is no down time.

We've got the remodel starting in just under two weeks, I'm going on vacation next week, we are getting a lot of new clients... and we're trying to figure out a new phone system...  I am very good at juggling a bunch of things but I hope I don't go postal (I don't think it will happen but you never know).

This weekend my sisters and I are going to visit my Dad.  He wants to see us all together.  As my sister says it could be something or it could be nothing...  it will be good to all be together.  Hopefully everyone will keep it together...  I find that when I'm hit with stress/adversity I just power through it...  Although I'm sad, I'm happy when I see the old man, I always make sure I tell him that I love him and that I know he loves me.

Last night I applied for a residency at Skowhegan.  It's a fancy Artist Residency in Maine.  I have a few friends who have gone.  I probably won't get in but you never know unless you try.  right???

what's another $50.00 entry fee in a pile of entry fees...

Today work will be a beast, and I sub a cycle class tonight.  Then I rest.  Until tomorrow.

Now I shall finish my coffee...

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

Hello, How are you?

Tuesday is here and it seems like it should be Thursday...

I think it is going to be a long week.

Here is my report from the weekend...

Superbowl party was fun.  I got home at a reasonable time.

That is all.

Yesterday at work we had a construction meeting - we are doing a remodel which starts in a few weeks... it should be interesting.

What else - a week from today I head to New York for the College Art Association conference.  I'm looking forward to it.  As usual I didn't get my act together to apply for any positions - but maybe I'll get a few "packets" of my work/resume put together...  I have signed up for a few professional development workshops one is called "Finding a Job in the Arts" and one is "Syllabus 101".  Being that I've never taught an official class and only tried to put together classes half-assed this would be a good thing.

Among other non conference related things I have a friend from school who has some work in a show which opens while I'm there so I'll go see that...  I have an alumni reception at the Sculpture Center to go to... The Met has a Matisse show I can go to... amongst other things...  I am also going to see my ex-roomates from my whole artstar experience.  It should be nice to get away and focus on the art me.

I saw my Dad again on Sunday... he was in bed taking a nap.  He's plugging along.  We've started some hospice care so he will have more attention - for that I am thankful.  I am also thankful for my family - we may be a bit dysfunctional at times, but compared to most families we do pretty well... it's nice that we can come together.

Things I am looking forward to this week?  Hopefully I will get my new glasses (I'm tired of squinting)...  Working both at the office and the gym... (I'm subbing on Thursday night too)...  I might possibly get my tax refund (that would be a nice thing to have before I go to New York)...

I think that's all I have for this morning...

Oh, my new business cards started peeling so they are reprinting them and sending me a new batch.  This is good because then I can leave the old ones all over the conference if I want... yay

Sunday, February 03, 2013

Sunday, Sunday, SUNDAY

This weekend has been fairly good.

Let's cut to the chase.  I went to visit my Dad yesterday and he was up and dressed.  He's eating a bit so I feel relatively calm.  Of course things can always change and they often do.

I am going to swing by again today on my way to a superbowl party.... 

This past week I had a good time with some corn dogs and am happy to report that the stress/corn dog diet resulted in a 3.8 pound weight loss.  I don't recommend it, but hey I will take it.

Last night I went to a going away party for my hair stylist - good times and I got home by 8:30.

This afternoon it's the Superbowl.  I have made my world famous cheese ball to take.
At some point I should take a shower...

That's it.

That's all I know.

Friday, February 01, 2013

Friday night's alright for fighting...

Finally it's Friday night.

I was supposed to go out to dinner with friends from the gym but I decided to stay in a go to bed early.

I took a nice long bath and am feeling better (although my eyelids are really really heavy)...

Well - today my Dad was actually up and dressed when my oldest sister got to his place so that's a little bit of a change.  It gives me a bit of comfort. 

The plan is for me to go visit tomorrow.  As from past experience you never quite know what you're going to get.  It will just be nice to see him.  It's been a few weeks thanks to that damn cold.

As I said earlier we just have to take it one day at a time.

I am going to get to bed soon.. it's going to be busy weekend.

What I know today...

I am holding up pretty well.

The Dad situation remains the same.  My oldest sister is going to visit today and read to him.  I am planning on going tomorrow morning.

From what I understand he's comfortable and sleeping most the time.  I don't think he's in any pain which is nice.

I am doing my best to keep up my normal routines.  I don't think it's beneficial to wait for the inevitable in a state of denial or fear.  The business of my schedule helps distract so I don't get into my head too much. 

Yesterday I went and got my eyes checked.  Turns out I'm falling apart. Nah, in actuality I just need some reading glasses.  I spent a little too much on them, but they are cute, attractive and very hip. 

Today I am going to attempt to clean up my desk at work.  It's an ongoing chore, but I keep trying.  We are going to be remodeling soon.  Hopefully I will get some more space to get things done and put things away.

Tonight I have been invited to go out for sushi.  I am not a fan of sushi, but I do like the people who invited me so I may attempt to go.  At some point I need to do laundry.... I'm getting dangerously low on things... I will not mention what but I am sure you can get the gist.

For treats today we are getting items from The Wandering Goose and Crumble and Flake... I have been unintentionally on the stress diet so I am still good when it comes to my Weight Watchers Points for the week... 

I think that's all I have for you this morning...

my friend Kyle put together this photo of what my eyes looked like after my eye appointment yesterday and photoshopped on the the glasses I'm getting...  I found this image on the web of the cat... it is not mine - the glasses were added.