Sunday, April 13, 2014

Weekend Check in.

Hello there.

Things are still going well.... I am ramping up for Birthday week and trying to keep my schedule from getting too crazy.

Some observations I have had recently.

Since getting my mind in a better space other things seem to be lining up.

I am not going crazy when it comes to food... not overeating, not not-eating... I'm just eating what I need. I weighed in yesterday and was down 1.6 pounds (I'm at 142 in case you want to know - I've got nothing to hide).. I didn't eat any of my activity points and I've given up sweets again... it's working.

Focusing on the wholeness of my being is important - giving attention to my creative side again, cultivating relationships and doing things that bring me joy are important.

Going to church - focusing on my spiritual life is so helpful.. I had gotten away from that part, even though I had counseled at camps it wasn't giving me what I needed.

Cleaning out the crap and focusing on what is truly important. I mean crap as junk in my apartment, junk in my car, junk in my life... it feels good.

Being truthful with people works.

Letting go of things we have no control over.


I went to a Mariners game last night  - an actual date I had. The word "date" was actually used... none of that "hanging out" crap.  It went well.

I think I am on my way to becoming a super-dater.

Today I will be teaching and going to church. I have a grant application I need to get put together too... too much to do, too little time... I take that back. Just enough time.  I am going to make time to do what I want to do.

I am looking forward to a great day.

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Hi There.

Just checking in - things are going really well and I feel good.

The practice of focusing on gratitude has helped me so much over the past few months..

Coming up this weekend I am going to the Mariner's game on Saturday and then I teach and have church on Sunday.

Some point I need to do laundry again.

I started a Brene Brown e-course last week and it is keeping me busy.

Here are a few photos to share...

Saturday, April 05, 2014

Show Your Work

Last night I went to a talk by Austin Kleon, the author of Steal Like an Artist and Show Your Work. He spoke at Town Hall... it was really entertaining and informative. I've read the book, but I think I'm going to read it again (I also bought Steal Like an Artist).

I am feeling really optimistic about things. I don't feel heavy like I did before. I feel good.

I'm going to show my work, but also show other people's work.

Today I am back to ww for my monthly weigh in.. I am going to be up but that is just fine. For a while I couldn't keep the weight on because I was so stressed out. With my improved mood comes an improved appetite. I will take that over the pit in the stomach feeling I had.

I have a poetry date with my friend Michelle Penaloza this afternoon. We are going to eat fish and chips and then write poems. I'm pretty excited about it. I met Michelle when I was on the Long Walk almost two years ago. She's an awesome poet and all around good human being. I am looking forward to channeling some of my current energy into the written word.

Here are a few more drawings I have done. The drawings are opening up things in me that feel good. Yay.

Monday, March 31, 2014


Good Morning.

I'm back for the day and here is my news.

I have turned the corner I think. Things are feeling more "right" finally.

I think a lot of this is the course of life, but also I have been focusing on my art more lately and I've started drawing and getting out and doing things.

I've met with my therapist twice and she's given me a lot of tools to work with and some good questions to think about. We talked about getting the balance right between my paying job, my artwork, and my relationships.. I've been neglecting the art area too long... just the act of taking up drawing has opened up other areas... I will share some of what I'm calling grief drawings in just a moment...

Other updates - I'm on my last day of prednisone - my cough is better - not completely gone though.. it sucks.

I have been asked to help facilitate a young adult retreat this summer (it should be good).

I'm planning my Birthday party.

I'm feeling pretty good.

Here are the drawings. I don't know the next time I will update, but don't worry, I'm not gone forever - just other things are taking precedence.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Still Here - Mini Hiatus.

I'm taking a bit of a break from posting I think.
I finished the climb in 12:52.39

didn't die, but I sure felt like my lungs were going to explode...

I'll be back someday soon... other things are taking precedence right now though..

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Better Living through Prednisone?

in the ongoing saga of the cough that won't go away I will start taking Prednisone this morning to try to eliminate the rest of this cough that has been nagging for so long.

The first cold I had was back in the end of October... back when I was happily oblivious to the grief that was lurking underneath the surface... my non-relationship was in full swing and thought things were really good.

There were parts that were really good, but a lot has changed since then. Overall I am emotionally better, but I think once this cough is gone I can really get going on new things... (I associate my cough with John and I think once it's gone for good I will REALLY feel better)... I'm not a professionally trained therapist but It my non-scientific opinion.

The Prednisone might make me hyper and hungry... that's why I couldn't take it last night... I don't anything but hot flashes keeping me up at night.

Today I am getting my hair done for the Big Climb, then I have dinner plans... somewhere in between I might work on cleaning out my apartment more.. it looks pretty good, but it's an ongoing process.

Tomorrow morning I am slated to start 4th for our team behind two firefighters and a triathlete.

I was told that I've done a great job with training and that I should be proud of myself.

I am.

Maybe there will be a nice single man there to admire my stair climbing prowess and sweep me off my feet...

Friday, March 21, 2014

Too much to do, too little time.

Just a quick update.

Big climb is on Sunday - I'm at 1,395 in my fundraising goal.

I have another call into my Doctor to see about finally getting rid of my cough. It's at the throat clearing stage... I just want it to be gone. Maybe it's just allergies.

I have a date with my chiropractor this morning... crack crack crack...

This weekend I am going to get my hair done before the climb. I'm adding a bit of bling to my hair to match my outfit...

Last night I was feeling a little blue so I just hung out on the sofa and fell asleep... it was good.

I am hopeful that with the coming of spring my outlook will improve in all areas.