Procrastination...

I should be getting things put together for New York... I should be going to the gym on a regular basis... I should be looking harder for my soul mate to live happily ever after with...

I should get a checkup... I actually haven't been to a doctor in over two years... for all of you out there do not follow by my example. In Grad School our health insurance sucked - now I have Washington Basic Health but I haven't gotten my crap together to make an appointment - now I'm leaving again. I guess if there's a tumor growing in me somewhere I'll have some good resource material for my artwork.

So... I tried to upload a video that I shot the other day but it isn't working... damn.

The hair is getting better but it still needs help... and yes I did face my fears last night and made the calls I needed to.

I've got to get over it...

It's the nerves... I wish I didn't have them... when I have to get up in front of people and talk about my artwork I'm not usually too scared... but when I have to call someone I know on the phone and talk to them - it freaks me out. I know fear is good in some cases but I wish I would just get over it.

I can feel the tension rising in my back... it's working its way up to my neck... it's going to get the best of me...

It's times like these I wish I had a _______ fill in the blank.