Camp!

I may be out of contact for a while... I'm heading off to camp today for a week. I'm going to be counseling and doing art things with a group of high school students. The count was at 41 a few days ago but it should grow - because like everything else in this world people wait until the last minute.

I still have packing to do and I have to work this morning.

I'll try to post again before I leave.

It's just not the same.

This week on the Today show has been a bit lackluster. Ann is not there and I'm not even sure Al has been there either.

Last night after dinner I went to Target to try on bathing suits - holy crap! I need to do something to my thighs.... liposuction, tanning... encase them in frosted Plexiglass so no one can see them. They are a bit dimply and pasty... maybe I should go to the gym and do lunges - that's probably a better idea than plexi.

Last night on SYTYCD it was a shocker! Jessi and Jesus... Poor Shauna now has to Dance with Cedric again... woe is me. Okay not that Cedric is bad, it's just that he doesn't have the versatility of the other dancers.

Do you think maybe I need to get a life?

If I could do it all over...

How in the hell did I get to be 40? I don't feel 40. Sure, I've been 40 for a few months now but I still can't quite get used to it.

Maybe if I kept repeating my age to myself over and over it might make me believe it.

On tonight's schedule I will watch the results show of So You Think You Can Dance (forever to be known on the blog as SYTYCD).. and starting to get together things for camp.

Here we go.

I really need to figure out more of the technical aspects of blogging... but I suppose ignorance is bliss.

Vengence is mine.

It's impossible to think of cleaver and witty title to posts every single morning. This morning is no different... I have cramps, my hip hurts... I've taken three Advil. Hopefully that will take care of everything.

I recently signed up for the UW Husky Connect Website. It's a sort of myspace for University of Washington Alumni. If you are navigating here from there - Go Dawgs! I have put a link to the blog on that site... the picture I have next to my profile is the one I took when I went to Spud with Chris. It's just the fish and chips.. I figure that is a pretty good description of me... (fishy and greasy??? - no! I just like food....) maybe I should change it to an actual picture so people will see how cute I really am.

I was going to post a photo of Max and Leo but Blogger is not wanting to cooperate this morning. Perhaps I'll try again later.

Today I have to get some things ready to go to camp. I've mentioned before how much I dig camp but I will say it again... I love camp! I don't even know what the theme is for the week but I'm sure it will be good. I am going to be doing the art stuff. I've decided that we will do body casting (like my Hamilton Family feet project).. and some collage stuff. I don't want it to be too high stress and I want people to have fun. I think it will be the thing for me to get back into the groove of art making.

The woosh and the tingle.

Last night I had a dream I was having a makeout session with my first boyfriend Trevor Gong. That was about all that happened in the dream but it's made me giddy and a bit antsy. I sure miss making out... I suppose I could just attack people at random but I might get arrested. I remember the feeling I used to get... the tingle. Men don't always understand the tingle like women do... I think it's endorphins... the hollow pit in the stomach, the legs feel weak and wobbly... I sometimes call it feeling wooshy.

I miss the woosh...

and the tingle.

What am I doing up now?

Once again I am up at the crack of dawn. It's 6:00 I've already done some cleaning and started some laundry. I picked up some new coffee at the store yesterday, it's not as good as Intelligentsia but what can you do?

Nancy is coming back tonight instead of tomorrow... it will be nice to sleep in my own bed for a while - that is until next week when I'm at camp.

Today's weather calls for SUN (I hope).. Let's see what Rich Marriot has to say... he's not as cute as Andy Avalos in Chicago but he's alright. Yay - sun and 80 degrees. I'm working on my suntan. Yes that's right people in Seattle can get suntans... it doesn't always rain.

This coffee kind of sucks. Anyone in Chicago want to send me some black cat blend? I'll pay for postage! and the coffee of course.

Monday night's alright...

Today I went out to lunch with a friend of mine. It was nice but a bit weird... I can't really go into it although I wish I could.

It really bites to have feelings for someone but not be able to do anything about it. All you can do is be honest and hope that the universe will set everything straight in the end.

Or you can find a rich man who's good in the sack and has a lot of money.

I've gone and done it.

I signed up for the Torchlight 8k race the end of July. If anyone out there wants to run with me let me know. It should be interesting.

I almost feel in control today... in control of everything that needs to be controlled. (my bowels, my eating habits etc...).

I went to Fred Meyer's and bought myself a belt. My pants kept falling down so I thought I might as well try one out. The old fat me would have never thought of using a belt. It's kind of fun... I'm still not quite to the point of tucking things in but we'll see.

I'm a star!

Okay, maybe not a star but I did manage to get up at 6:15 and go to the gym. I need to start training for my next run. I need to sign up for something so I have something to look forward to AND so that I can do another recording. I've been non-art making for too long.

I think that's my main problem.

Now I need to see if I can find the finances to get my brows done and my haircut... then I'll be back to semi-normal.

Yo.

Today I ended up going to visit my niece the model and my sister and brother in law. It was very exciting... we went to Bellevue Square to buy socks for Katie... then we went to Red Robin for an early dinner. It was good and definitely not on plan.

Oh well, eventually my brain will catch up with my mouth.

My hip hurts... wah.

Plastic's

On CBS Sunday morning they are doing a story on Plastic and the lack of recycling. I should send them some pictures of my work.

Another exciting evening.

I was supposed to go out to with Melinda tonight but the gloomy side of me won out and I decided not to go. I didn't quite feel right... I think I'll go to bed soon.

I sometimes wonder why I don't like to be around other people a lot... I haven't always been this way (have I?)...

The best laid plans...

I had planned on moving the grass today here at Nancy's house but I can't get the mower to start...

Work this morning went really fast. It wasn't as bad as I thought I might be... I"m always expecting the worst. I think I might head out to Target to look at workout/running wear.

I should go to the gym and workout.

The Verdict.

I received a phone call from my friend Melinda and we went for a walk and then to dinner at a Mexican restaurant in Downtown Edmonds. It was good.

I also received a phone call from my territory manager and I am going to be working one or two ww meetings tomorrow morning. It's the two that are after my regular meeting at 7am. It will be nice to have some more money coming in.

BTW, I didn't get a paycheck... I'm figuring it has something to do with my moving and not having my information updated.

What's going on?

I'm actually in a good mood today. I've worked out, I haven't fallen off the good food bandwagon and I'm looking pretty cute. I guess that means I should go somewhere and be seen. I guess I'll see how that all pans out and I'll keep you updated.

Maybe I should go see a movie... maybe I should go for a walk? Maybe I should go to Target?? I haven't been there lately. I feel the need to get some new running clothes. I ran a bit this morning and it didn't hurt a bit... I should sign up for a race and get back to my work...

Tragedy will increase readership...

I posted that comment last night about the girl having her feet severed and it has blown my pageloads through the roof. I guess I'm just like other people... I want to have the gory details.

It turns out that on the AOL news page there is a link where you can read blogs on the subject. Somehow they found mine. I sure hope people weren't disapointed that I didn't have anything too exciting to say about the subject.

Crap-ola...

I just ate a whole sleeve of ritz crackers... I don't think they were very point friendly. Maybe once I get back to living at my own house I'll get back on track with my eating plan.

I think I get paid tomorrow for the WW meetings I've been working... maybe I'll be able to pay a few bills (like the one for almost $900 from the dentist).

I guess that's it for now....

Theme park horror!

I saw that a girl had her feet severed at an amusement park today.. it got me thinking how many accidents do happen and I found this website. I used to like amusement park rides but now I'm not so sure.

Things I miss about Chicago..

I miss my friends of course. Karolina sent me this picture yesterday. She was at the Field Museum and they had this model of the Space Needle. All of my other friends you know who you are... I miss you too.

I also miss Argo Tea and Intelligentsia Coffee. I've got a pot of Intelligentsia Black Cat Blend right here beside me.... I should plunge the pot and start caffeinating myself.

I'm a bit stiff this morning... not too bad. I just wish it was better... I suppose if I didn't eat like there was no tomorrow it might be better... I worked out with weights the other day... I think that's another reason I'm stiff.

Today I have my interview at another temp agengy.. then I might have lunch with Matt and Bryan again. I will try to stay on track...

I'm back..

Twice in one day. Can you believe it? I love having wifi in the range of the sofa.

I am happy to report that I went to the gym tonight. I went to the one near where I'm house sitting... it's not as nice am the one I usually go to but it will suffice.

I wish I didn't like food so much... okay maybe it's not that I like food - it's just that I eat when I'm lonely or bored (which is a lot). I suppose I could make myself go out and do things but it's just hard sometimes. Maybe by the time I turn 43 things will change. What the hell am I talking about?

Oh happy day!

I am not going to dwell on the fact that I have been eating like a pig for the past few days... I am not going to lament my lack of motivation in going out and meeting people and making new friends... and I am not going to complain about my pasty white skin that reflects the rays of the sun with a glare that would make Donny Osmonds teeth look dingy.

I am going to celebrate the fact that I am sitting on a sofa in front of a television and blogging.... I have figured out how to get my friend Nancy's wireless connection hooked up so I can get back to what is comfortable - being a couch potato! Oh, I have my coffee here too...

Last night I fell asleep on the sofa before 8pm, I went to bed a little after 10 and then woke up around 5:45... I could go to the gym - there's one up here where I'm house sitting... but I have my laptop and I feel good. Maybe this will be what gets me to quit eating so much... if my hands are busy I can't shovel the food into my mouth.

Okay, now is the time for pictures.
This is the house that I used to live in in Fremont. When I was working my temp job last week I walked over there and took a few pictures. I was 21 when I lived there... if you are a math wiz you will figure out that that was about 19 years ago. (Crap I'm getting old)!



Here is another picture of the Pirate (Mr. Wormy)... he was sitting up for treats last night and I tried to take some pictures of his trick. A fly decided to buzz around so he got distracted..

Now that I'm comfortable you will be hearing a lot more from me!

- I've been thinking about stories I can use in my artwork... about my quest to find true happiness only to be dashed by a lack of information and communication... I'll tell you all about the story of my coffee delivery to Doug at a later date.

Visiting with Dad...

I went over to help my father with some organizational items today.... it took a bit longer than expected but that's okay.

There are some very interesting things that happen when you live in a "retirement" community. Near the door of my father's apartment was a small wooden object that looked sort of like a door stop. It's was far from that... It turns out that when you go to your apartment for the evening you stick this little doo-hickey out under your door so it can be seen from the hallway. It means that the apartment is occupied. In the morning if you don't remove it by 10am the staff will come knocking to make sure you aren't dead. It's kind of funny in a twisted sort of way... but hey, I think I would want to be found if I was dead.

I wonder how the people who have to open the doors feel when they know they might be encountering death... I guess they're probably used to it.

right foot...

this morning I am off to the chiropractor again. I've been a bit stiff but hopefully this visit should clear things up for a while. I got a call from another temp agency and have an appointment to go see them on Thursday. It will be nice to be on a few radars so I can start paying off those bills.

Pirate is doing fine, he decided to wake me up at 5 this morning... I gave him some treats and then closed the door. Currently he is trying to cough up a hairball (It didn't come out though...).

I should get a move on if I want to look pretty for my adjustment.

Hello bling!

It's now official. I have bling. My gold crown was (installed?) put in this morning.... I haven't been able to chew on the left side of my mouth for a while... I've missed being able to chew with wild abandon.

I went to the gym after the dentist... I'm trying to work off all those carbs I had the past few days. Vegetables? what are those?.. I've been feeling sort of blue lately... it will turn back around... it always does. I need to get out more - that would cheer me up.

The day after...

I was going to try and be good and not overdo it when it came to eating yesterday.

I failed. but it's another day and I will get back on that horse and try to ride it out of town... (that sounds sort of dirty..).

I have one thing to say to people out there online looking for love. Please know how to spell and run a spell check before you submit anything for public perusal. I'm not going to go out with you if you can't spell "very" or differentiate "they're" and "there" or "you're" and "your".

Today I am washing dishes at church again. I will go to the gym and work out... I have to work off that Peanut Buster Parfait I ate last night....

What the???

Okay so nothing too exciting to talk about here... it's another week of trying to track points... trying to make myself go out and meet people... trying to get a little action (okay - so I exaggerate on that last item of action)...

I revised my profile on Yahoo Personals and opened it up for people to see. I have had a lot of views but I am not going to fork over money so I can talk to people.... there was a cute guy with tattoos on his calves who looked at my profile. I looked at his... if he were to email me I might spring the ten bucks (or whatever it is) to talk to him.

or maybe I'll just go stand on the corner with a sign that says "date me".

Mr. Wormy says good morning.

This is the Worminator - otherwise known as Mr. Wormy or Pirate.

He is a pretty good cat... doesn't make too much of a fuss and he asks to be let outside and then meows at the door when he wants to be let back in. Too bad I can't find a man with those qualities...

Today I am working and then it's off to the gym and then I am working at church washing dishes for a wedding. I better look okay - you never know, there might be single eligible men there... (even though I'll be in the kitchen...).

In search of...

the perfect fish taco.

Lately I have been having hankerings for fish tacos.... it all started back in Chicago with the Burrito House (one of my favorites)... and has continued onto the Rock Bottom Brewery Mahi Mahi tacos (pretty tasty)... the Blue Water Taco Grill (so-so) and today with Tacos Guaymas... it was pretty good too but I can do without the white sauce...

If anyone has suggestions for fish tacos in Seattle let me know. I am thinking I will be going to Taco Del Mar soon but I think they bread their fish and I probably don't need the extra points that are inherent with breaded anything.

how about those Mariners...

I must admit I did miss looking at all those cute ball players.... not that the Cubs are unattractive... but there's just something about those M's. Ichiro has very nice forearms.

This morning at the gym I saw a very nice looking man... I stared him down.... maybe he'll be there tomorrow.... too bad I looked like crap.

I have to get a move on - I don't want to be late. Wormie (Pirate) the cat says hi. I take some photos of him and post them later.

Have burger will travel...

I had a very yummy burger for dinner (I'm sure it's worth more points than I want to think about).

This afternoon at lunch I took a walk around the neighborhood where I used to live. I took some pictures of the house I used to live in... it's too bad I didn't appreciate it as much when I lived there.

Man I'm feeling old today. I guess that's it... sorry I'm not more exciting.

Should I stay or should I go now?

I am contemplating weather or not I should go to the gym. I'm sitting here - tired... I just want to go back to bed.

I am working again to day and then I am off to Edmonds to house sit for my friend Nancy. I worked with her a long time ago at the first Law Firm... she had quite the reputation (and she was very proud of it).... if we knew then where we'd be now.... She's starting an MFA Writing program in Vermont. It's a low residency program so she'll only be gone a few weeks a few times a year.

I think maybe I'll just hang out on the sofa for a while... I can always go to the gym later.

sorry to keep you hanging there...

my wifi connection was down today in addition to me being very busy.

The day started out with me taking my momma to have cataract surgery... I just dropped her off because I had to go to work...

I spent the day organizing files... it wasn't too bad... I am a bit rusty when it comes to using a PC though....

I will update in the morning but I need to go to bed now because I'm pooped.

Thank you Jesus.

I have a temp job for the next few days. It's going to be helping a sole practitioner clean out some files. It's in the Fremont area of Seattle.... they have some nice grocery stores there... I might have to do a grocery store field trip while I'm there.

Productivity is my middle name...

okay - really it's Lynn but for my purposes today it is Productivity.

I am going to take the time today to read my financial aid information and do my exit interviews so I can gets me my diploma!

I might also take a shower.

I have clothes!

and a new razor... (boy, were my legs starting to look scary!).... I have all my things and my futon is living in it's new room... I don't know If I can get a wireless signal in there so it won't be like old times when I could sit/blog/drink coffee all at the same time.

I will post the picture of the police car later (it came after the movers arrived - long story)...

I went to the gym tonight to work off the fish and chips I had for lunch today (they were good, but not as good as Spud!).

I finish my housesitting gig tomorrow and then start a new one on Wednesday.

I guess that's it for now. More tomorrow.

Where's my stuff?

Oh that's right... it's arriving today (my stuff that is). The movers are supposed to come sometime this morning. It will be nice to have something different to wear. I'm tired of the same workout clothes - I need a change.

My studio supplies are in there too... maybe I will work on something art-like finally....

here are a few pictures of Stinky and me...




She's the one in the brown.

Well, maybe I'll do something productive today. We'll just have to wait and see.

Saturday's all right for fighting.

Good news. I weighed in this morning and I was only up .8! I guess all that working out is paying off. Now I just have to reign in the emotional eating.

After the meeting and our coffee I went to the gym. I tried the step class again but my knee wasn't going to agree so I just hung out on the treadmill. I've decided that when I choose a specific piece of equipment I will take the one next to the cutest guy using that type of equipment. This morning I chose the treadmill next to a really cute guy... did he talk to me? No - but hey maybe someone will eventually notice my stunning beauty.

Someone in Washington DC really likes me...

Who are you?

The only problem with being able to track who visits your blog is not knowing who they are.... (sometimes I can tell other times I can't).

This person must like me. They've were reading for over two hours.

Are you single?

Ummm...

I'm thinking that maybe I won't eat everything in sight today. I will try to keep everything in check... I will not let anxiety rule my life, I will not let other people bring me down...

Maybe I'll try to find a leash today and take Tucker out for a walk. She doesn't like to go on walks - she will just wait there until you drag her. She makes a good dust mop.

Last night at first Thursday was pretty low key. I saw a few things that I liked - Ron Lambert at the Catherine Person Gallery was pretty interesting. He works with video in sculptures.... there were some nice plaster forms with mylar and inkjet prints... the craftsmanship was nice.

The show at SOIL was called Crud. I will have to go back an look again at it... I think I liked it though.

When I was walking through the galleries I was trying to envision where my work might fit and I haven't quite figured that out yet. Actually my work will fit into Crawl Space just fine I think... I have to set up a studio visit with them.

Okay - it's official. This is my last week of sitting on my ass feeling sorry for myself. I have to start working again and applying for things. Two weeks is long enough for having a pitty party / vacation.

Okay, I feel better.

rollercoaster...

I wish the mood swings would stop.... I guess I just have too much time on my hands.

I know eventually things will even out and it will feel "normal" again.

Today is first Thursday, I'm going to head downtown tonight and check out the shows and stop by the newly remodeled Seattle Art Museum to see me some art. Hopefully by getting back into the groove of going to things will snap me out of the funk.

Nightmares and Horoscopes.

Last night I had a dream that I was trying to get on a bus to go somewhere (Chicago or Portland?) and after a long string of setbacks I get to where the buses depart and it was gone. I said some choice expletives and then I woke up. This is the first time in a while I have woken up and I can remember.

After the dream I thought about just watching the Today show and drinking coffee but I made the mistake of reading my horoscope... it explicitly said I should go to the gym and work out until I felt the burn - so I did.

This afternoon I am having lunch with Matt and Bryan... it should be interesting. I'm sure at some point we will talk about boy things (that is sex and lack thereof) I'm like one of the guys with them (well at least with Matt. Bryan will just have to deal)...



Chris sent me this picture of my Spuds experience... I'm still trying to work off the weight I've gained since I've been home... but I must say the emotional eating is getting the upper hand at this point. Things will work out, they usually do...

I am a bad woman...

I have done something I shouldn't have... I am evil... and I should be reprimanded.

My evil twin (we're talking Sybil here - is that how you spell her name?) made me do it. I can't be nice and friendly all the time can I? Heck no... (see I used the word "heck" there...). I'm sure eventually the goodness will make its way back to the surface, but for now it can just stay buried.

Training continues...

I must say that I have missed getting really sweaty. At the gym that is... I never pictured myself being a runner but I think I'm turning into one. I spent an hour on the treadmill this morning - half of that time I was running.

My meeting at the temp agency went pretty well, I just have to expand on my resume and have my references checked and then I should be good to go. The WW meeting went well too. The terminology is different here but I'll figure it out.

Today I'm off to my Chiropractor for the last time (hopefully) for a while - the budget can't handle much more - and then to visit my sister and baby model niece Katie. Maybe I'll take photos.

The lifting...

Okay here's a phenomena that I've never experienced before until last weekend... being physically picked up and carried someplace by a member of the opposite sex.
It's strange - I'm not quite sure how to handle these sorts of things.

Next time you see me try to pick me up and carry me... Hopefully it will work.

Teeth - who needs them.

I am off to the dentist this morning to start getting my crown put on my tooth. For those of you who may have forgotten, it's the tooth that I had the root canal done on earlier this year - to the tune of $1,200 and some change.... It sucks not having dental insurance but what is a girl to do?

I also have an interview at a temp agency. It's a floor below where I used to work so I am going to have lunch with my friend Terry before hand (if I can chew...).

After the interview I thought I would wander around downtown and then I'm off to WW to work. I'm a bit freaked out (but not too much)... I don't like not knowing what's happening or where things are... I'm sure I'll find what I need and muddle through the meeting.

On the artistic front I started writing down ideas - some which I can't share yet, but I'm sure they will reveal themselves soon...



This photo was taken on my last Saturday in Chicago. Karolina and my baby model niece Katie...

Sunday morning workout.

SO.... I woke up this morning at 5:30... I worked out (I ran for 17 minutes straight and it didn't hurt..) that's a good thing.

I just got back from church... some of the ladies asked me if I wanted to join them for lunch. I have plans so I had to turn them down.

I will remember to tell you all about senior citizens secret signals soon. It's kind of fun.

Step one, two, three....

I just took my first step aerobics class in over two years.... I think I'm going to hurt tomorrow.

I feel like a (fill in the blank)...

Cow? Lump? 40 year old who can't stay up past 10:00pm? I would say all of the above.

Presently I am sitting in the office of the place that I am house sitting. I am going to go to WW, then for coffee and then the gym. Overall I think I'm up about 4 pounds since I moved back.... I just have to find things to keep me busy and not dwell on things that bring me down.

I have an interview at a temp agency on Monday. The woman seemed to think that they wouldn't have a hard time finding me work because of my background. I just need some income so I can quit worrying about the student loans.

I guess I better be off. I need to pull on the work out clothes.

Oh, I'm going out with a boy tonight... (when's the last time that happened??) okay - December...

Proof.

Proof that I received a diploma cover. When I come into some money maybe I'll order a commemorative photo.

aye yai yai yai yai! (phonetically spelled)

I'm feeling stressed today. I have student loans coming due, I have no income and I have a great urge to make myself feel better by shoveling food into my mouth.

I know my family will not let me become destitute but still I hate being reliant on other people. I think today I will go through items that I might be able to sell on craigslist and try to raise some cash. Too bad I don't believe in prostitution.... too bad I'm too old to sell my eggs. Too bad I don't have a sugar daddy.



These ducks were at Greenlake the other day... they were there yesterday as well... ya think they might live there?